The only sex Ive ever had is with people I don’t know or give a shit about. Ive never been in a relationship. Today, although I did enjoy it, I spent my evening with an 11-year old boy, probably trying to fill a void left by the fact that I never got that little brother I wanted. Also, every time Im around someone I find attractive, I turn into a complete bumbling idiot. More than often, I also end up creeping them out. (I tend to stare) I often have fantasies about certain guys just being nice to me. I feel like I have accomplished nothing with my life so far and that theres simply nothing special at all about me. 

:/

Im going to sleep, Im pretty sad right now..